A brand new me, no more framed glasses, long messy hair, long cinderella skirt. It was the time where things began to turn in an extraordinary way.

I'm nicole,14. I never knew that the feeling of being attractive was so great, further more, i didn't knew that life in secondary school was such a drastic change from primary school. I was the only child in the family and was brought up by my mum.

Who knows where is my dad? No one ever metioned him to me before, not even my mum. I felt that i was the most fortunate child in the world to have my mum beside me whenever i need her.

Money wasn't a problem at home at that point of time, i changed my framed glasses to contact lenses, i rebonded my hair, as well as altering my skirt. I do not want to live in the shadow of that nerdy looking me.

Life changed when mum was sacked one day during an economic crisis. She had to take up 2 jobs just to hold on to the family income. Just this one fine day when mum was back from work, tired as she may be, she began to rest on the sofa closing her eyes.

"Mum, i need $70 to buy a real stylish nike bag. Can i have it?" Knowing the circumstances of my family, i still insisted on buying as all my cliques are having that. Mum didn't disagree, took out her purse of her and gave me the money.

Overwhelmed and delighted, i jumped for joy as i took the notes to keep it in my bag. I took everything for granted, knowing that my mum would give me anything that i wanted. Not knowing that she was actually skipping her lunch just to meet my demands, my monthly contact lenses, everything that i wanted.

I began to demand for more irrelevant things,until this day where mum shook her head and said, "I'm sry, my dear, i can't possibly fufil ur wish of going to a music school for singing training. "

Letting my head rule over my heart, i began to shout at the top of my voice to her. "You are always like that, everything also can't ! " My mum did not retaliate, instead saying in a very polite manner to me, " Its not that i do not want to give you everything you wanted, its really a burden for me, i have to support the family income."

"Yayaya, you would say like that for sure! I knew it ! " Mum being to fluster and shouted at me " You wont get it? Would you?" Out of anger, i began to curse and swear at her for the very first time in my 13 years, " I everything also wouldn't get it, i hope you meet out with an accident wehn u cross the road ! "

Mum started to break down and cried at this point of time. She wimpered and said nothing, the whole atmosphere was shattered into silence. No one said a word, there was only the sound of crying.

I still insisted on my demands and never thought of what mum was thinking. I didn't care about what she was thinking. Until three days later..............

I was having lessons in school, when a school clerk came up to my class to say that my mum has passed on in an accident. It was then when tears began to flow down my cheeks, thinking of the things that i have said to mum.

I didn't even had the chance to tell her, i'm sorry. I didn't had the chance to tell her that i do not want to have the music lesson anymore. I didn't have the chance of seeing her for the last time. When i rushed to the hospital, mum was already lying stationary, she couldn't ever hear me anymore.

I was eventaully left on my own.......